1. |
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Oooh-ooh-ooh
Oooh-ooh-ooh
The American, the American, American dream
The American, the American, it's a scheme
The American, the American, it's a scheme
The American, the American, we're dying
In America, in America, we're dying
In America, In America
In America, In America
In America, In America
In America, in America, we're dying
In America, In America
In America, In America
In America, in America, we're dying
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2. |
Time Is Falling Down
05:47
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I’ve been working tirelessly on me
Where am I going?
I still don’t know it
Everybody wants a piece of me
Until I blow it
And they don’t know that yet
There’s more to life than these four walls
I trap myself in these dirty stalls
And no one is looking for me
In the grand scheme of things
Nothing matters
Nothing matters
Choose the life you want to live
Make it matter
Don’t let it shatter
Don’t be like me
I’m afraid of everything
‘Cause I’m not settled into who I am
No, my life is not mine, put it in someone else’s hands
G I N G E R
G I N G E R
G I N G E R
G I N G E R
G I N G E R (wanna be a superstar)
G I N G E R (she don’t know who she are)
G I N G E R (wanna be a superstar)
G I N G E R (wanna be a superstar)
I never know how I feel or what has been
Going on in my mind or the world, it’s so drastic
I try to lift myself up but I am too weak
Nobody ever knows when it’s me who is missing
I stripped my skin to get rid of my bruises
I need a clean slate, if I don’t get it I’ll lose it
I know I’m ‘posed to thank you for your so called help
But I loathe what you did, ‘cause you made me myself
Let this hourglass change time
I don’t want to be me, I just want to change my life (let the world be mine)
Let this hourglass change time
Call me another, ‘cause Ginger’s not here tonight
M E L A N C
Melancholy
M E L A N C
Melancholy
Why do I not smile?
‘Cause I’m Melancholy
Everybody goes wild
Not me, I’m melancholy
M E L A N C
Melancholy
M E L A N C
Melancholy
Why do I not smile?
‘Cause I’m Melancholy
Everybody goes wild
Not me, I’m melancholy
Let this hourglass change time
I don’t want to be me, I just want to change my life (let the world be mine)
Let this hourglass change time
Call me another ‘cause Ginger’s not here tonight
Let this hourglass change time
I don’t want to be me, I just want to change my life (let the world be mine)
Let this hourglass change time
Call me another, ‘cause Ginger’s not here tonight
My hands are calloused
And they’re not delicate
I just want to be a measurement of time
My hands are calloused
And they’re not delicate
The sand moves this way and that way just like my mind
My hands are calloused
And they’re not delicate
I just want to be a measurement of time
My hands are calloused
And they’re not delicate
The sand moves this way and that way just like my mind
Let this hourglass change time
I don’t want to be me, I just want to change my life (let the world be mine)
Let this hourglass change time
Call me another, ‘cause Ginger’s not here tonight
Let this hourglass change time
I don’t want to be me, I just want to change my life (let the world be mine)
Let this hourglass change time
Call me another, ‘cause Ginger’s not here tonight
Everything I love is ending and time is falling down
Smiles never ever last forever but neither do our frowns
I never want it to end but we will fall to the ground
The different voices in my head are waking up so help me now
I don’t know who I am
Her name is Ginger, hurts like a splinter
They don’t know who I am
It’s getting deeper, don’t want to see her
It’s getting deeper, don’t want to see her
It’s getting deeper, don’t want to see her
It’s getting deeper, don’t want to see her
It’s getting deeper, don’t want to see her
My hands are calloused
And they’re not delicate
I just want to be a measurement of time
My hands are calloused
And they’re not delicate
The sand moves this way and that way just like my mind
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3. |
Last Night's Trauma
03:34
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The show went quiet
Can finally hear my thoughts
Nothing to drown them out
Architecture burning down
Is this the silence?
I can hear it all
Don’t want to see it all no
But I can feel it all
All of my secrets, they will never know
And Melancholy, she comes, she goes
Can’t say she’ll be gone forever
But for now she’s not stuck to me with a tether
Wish I could take my life away
So I could finally stop crying
I try to think of words to say
But my mind can’t find ‘em
If I’m not going to heal soon
Then what’s the point of me trying
And I don’t know who I am anymore
Because of last night’s trauma
This is my formal resignation
From who I was before
I retire this name
‘Cause this body ain’t mine anymore
Who I was is a memory I can never explain
The person in the mirror doesn’t look like me
But I’ll do about anything to forget all this strife
Try to make a puppet out of me; move to the afterlife
I can’t carry myself as long as you’re alive
‘Cause the memories resurface in the dead of the night
I’ve been lost to the trauma, just want to feel the daylight
How can this be my vessel if it don’t feel like mine?
Where is Ginger going?
Melancholy will be back before we know it
Oh it could take a bit of time before she shows it
It's been a long day and I can’t change
Everybody wanna tell me why it’s insane
I never know who I am
I never know who you are
I guess I can’t trust love
It only breaks my heart
‘Cause everyone’s on the ground and everybody has a frown
And I can’t be the one to save them all
Everybody wanna tell me, everybody wanna sell me on why I am nothing at all
Nothing at all, nothing at all, I'm nothing at all
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4. |
Paranoia
04:32
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I don’t like my name so I’ll go by a new one
Don’t want this face I’ll just let them go sew one
Not gonna stay ‘cause I’m too close for comfort
I don’t speak much so in silence I suffer
But since I’m here lonely and nobody’s listening
I’ll imagine the world that I’d rather much live in
Pretend I have money and love all around
In real life my body is just on the ground
I don’t know where I am going
But I know I don’t want to stay here
On this ground I lay broken
Wish my existence could just disappear
‘Cause I don’t like knowing
That the world can listen and hear
If I were just alone and open
My thoughts would finally become clear
I don’t really wanna think about them
Knowing I’m here
Maybe it’s paranoia
But I’m always in fear
I don’t really wanna think about them
Knowing I’m here
Maybe it’s paranoia
But I’m always in fear
And if they hate pop stars then they’ll hate me too
‘Cause I’m not an artist or anyone cool
Can’t romanticize my life ‘cause nobody wants
To look like me, feel like me, is that all my fault?
If I seduce them, it’s just for a moment
The people won’t know who they’ve truly anointed
And yes I’ll take my fall, less graceful than a bow
If anything they’ll take the words out my mouth
I don’t know where I am going
But I know I don’t want to stay here
On this ground I lay broken
Wish my existence could just disappear
‘Cause I don’t like knowing
That the world can listen and hear
If I were just alone and open
My thoughts would finally become clear
I don’t really wanna think about them
Knowing I’m here
Maybe it’s paranoia
But I’m always in fear
I don’t really wanna think about them
Knowing I’m here
Maybe it’s paranoia
But I’m always in fear
I don’t really wanna think about them
Knowing I’m here
Maybe it’s paranoia
But I’m always in fear
I don’t really wanna think about them
Knowing I’m here
Maybe it’s paranoia
But I’m always in fear
And when will be my end?
And when will be my end?
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5. |
Stalker/Predator
03:45
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I wish you were dead
I wish you were gone
I wish that I could kill you so that I could just move on
You murdered myself
And filled me with paranoia
That you're lurking in the shadows
I'm afraid that I'll not know it
I now hate September because that's when I saw your phone
Pictures of me that you never should have owned
And I saw the videos you took of me too
Whenever I'm alone, I'm afraid you're hiding in my room
It's funny how a predator will make you believe
That you're the one at fault, you're just hallucinating
And yet you're protected by my supposed saviors
Didn't think they'd take the side of the perpetrator
Don't you dare ever think that you're going to heaven
When I'm through with you I will send you to hell
But death is too easy so I'll let you stay here
So long that the flesh on your body will smell
(So can you feel my pain?
Emotions surge like a hurricane
And when you pass to the other side
You'll wish you were back here barely alive)
So try it again, yeah I really wanna see
What you think you now can ever do to me
Yes, try it again so you really can see
Throw you in the gutter like you did to me
I've got witnesses spectating in my mind
Which voice will I listen to when it's your time
And to my loved ones, I must apologize
When I'm not suicidal, I'm planning homicide
'Cause I know that heaven on earth ain't angelic
You taught me pain, I won't let you forget it
And no God could save you from what you have done
Karma's a bitch, I would know, I am one
(Is it the twenties? I'm roaring with rage
Great Depression in the mind is no quiet thing
'Cause silence is violent or maybe that's me
So in our eternity, don't fucking scream)
Don't you dare ever think that you're going to heaven
When I'm through with you I will send you to hell
But death is too easy so I'll let you stay here
So long that the flesh on your body will smell
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6. |
The Roaring Twenties
01:22
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It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
It's the roaring twenties!
Blame it on the decade
Or blame it on the year
The roaring twenties
Are always full of fear
Blame it on the decade
Or blame it on the year
The roaring twenties
Are always full of fear
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7. |
Isolation
02:42
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Uhh-uhh-uh-uh-uhh
Uhh-uhh-uh-uh-uhh-uhh
Oohhh-oohhh-uh-oh-uh-ohh
I walked inside not knowing why
I hid in the bathroom from my pride (from my pride)
There she was she wanting to die (she was wanting to die)
And I forget that I was coming to hide (and she was coming to hide)
She said she was asking for a sign (a sign)
Said maybe I was her reason why
I don’t know if everything happens for a reason
But I’m glad she was here for the season
I lied. You’re on my mind.
I lied. You’re on my mind.
I lied. You’re on my mind. mind. mind. mind.
I lied. You’re on my mind.
I lied. You’re on my mind.
I lied. You’re on my mind.
And everybody wanna tell me that I’m not doing it right
Said you gotta be like her but she’s not fighting my fight
And I try to be myself, but that’s something I can’t help
‘Cause I don’t know who I am, or if the truth is just a scam
I could never be like you, you could never be like me
And I know in this life we’re just all growing
But I wanna be like you, I don’t wanna be like me
Everybody’s disappointed when I start speaking
I’m still a little left out, out
I’m still a little left out
I’m still a little left out
I’m still a little left ohh-ooh-ohh
I’m still a little left out
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8. |
Don't Panic (Panic!)
04:12
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Everybody is growing
Everybody, everybody but me knows it
Decisions seem so final
‘Cause I want to be cool but I’m so suicidal
Wish I was easygoing
Should talk to my doctor about increasing my dosage
To leave this room seems impossible
It’s like I woke up murdered but no one’s responsible
They say don’t panic
But my life is my life and it’s so hard to manage
The mind seems so dangerous
You don’t know what you know until you’re out of the matrix
I see my life in the magazines
It looks so cool, gosh, I wish that, that were me!
I just looked in the mirror
I was wondering why that she looked familiar
I am so lost, I don't know who I’ve been
I don’t like my exterior and nor what’s within
I feel so lost, don’t feel right in my skin
They say don’t panic but my panic is setting in
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Panic is setting in! Panic is setting in!
I was trying to grow and
Now I’m back in the place that made me alone yeah
Decisions seem so final
‘Cause I tried to be cool but I’m so suicidal
Wish I could be authentic
I wish the words that I’ve said, I wish I knew if I meant them
To leave this life seems impossible
It’s like I woke up murdered but no one’s responsible
They say don’t panic
But my thoughts are my thoughts and they’re so hard to manage
The world seems so dangerous
You don’t know what you know until you’re out of the matrix
Don’t think I should be magazines
‘Cause I’ll look at myself and wish that, that were me
I won’t look in the mirror
‘Cause the person I see, yeah, she don’t seem familiar
I am so lost, I don't know who I’ve been
I don’t like my exterior and nor what’s within
I feel so lost, don’t feel right in my skin
They say don’t panic but my panic is setting in
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Panic is setting in! Panic is setting in!
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Panic is setting in! Panic is setting in!
I’m so tired of my mind
And yet I’m always in distress, how can that be defined?
I’m exhausted and yet at the same time
I’m so panicked ‘cause the world always makes me wanna cry
I’m so tired of my mind
I’m so tired of the world
Didn’t think that I could worry
‘cause I’m already too hurt
I’m so tired of my mind
I’m so panicked for the world
Didn’t think that I could worry...
I am so lost, I don't know who I’ve been
I don’t like my exterior and nor what’s within
I feel so lost, don’t feel right in my skin
They say don’t panic but my panic is setting in
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Panic is setting in! Panic is setting in!
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Don’t panic! Panic is setting in!
Panic is setting in! Panic is setting in!
Panic is setting in!
Panic is setting in!
Panic is setting in!
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9. |
Melancholy
03:40
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These days I never know
These days I never know where I’m going to go
And I waste my time feeling low
I have to give myself permission to grow
Have to grow
I’m not proud of what I’ve said
I’m not proud of what I’ve done
It’s hard for me to care for myself when I’ve hurt the ones I loved
I always want to bury myself when I’m placed with blame
I need to find a better way to cope than cut my brain
No one could love me if they if they know who’ve I’ve been
I feel like the only time I’m liked is when I’m faking it
I’m left behind ‘cause I’m too depressed to be somebody
When they don’t call me ginger they call me melancholy
Validation from praise
Give me more, forget grace
My ego’s fueled from my desire
To set the bar a little higher
Don’t let me go, don’t leave me no,
Don’t leave me alone
Don’t let me go, don’t leave me no,
Please don’t leave me alone
Ooh-oooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
I wish I liked who I was
You know I’m trying but I can’t get there because
I’m always standing in my way
I’m always in a state of decay
I can’t keep living this way
I’m not proud of what I’ve said
I’m not proud of what I’ve done
It’s hard for me to care for myself when I’ve hurt the ones I loved
I always want to bury myself when I’m placed with blame
I need to find a better way to cope than cut my brain
No one could love me if they if they know who’ve I’ve been
I feel like the only time I’m liked is when I’m faking it
I’m left behind ‘cause I’m too depressed to be somebody
When they don’t call me ginger they call me melancholy
Validation from praise
Give me more, forget grace
My ego’s fueled from my desire
To set the bar a little higher
Don’t let me go, don’t leave me no,
Don’t leave me alone
Don’t let me go, don’t leave me no,
Please don’t leave me alone
Oooh-ooh-uh-uhhhh-ahhh
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10. |
The Great Depression
03:21
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I've been contemplating
Wondering who I've become
Living in stagnation
In a world now turned to dust
The timelessness of mascara
Stains and pretty lies
Is there a Great Depression
In the lonely mind?
The show went loud then quiet
Can finally hear my thoughts
Nothing to drown them out
Is this the silence
I don't want to hear but the
Architecture is now burning down
And all of my secrets are out there
But I keep them quiet
Don't think they will ever know
That Melancholy don't haunt me
But trauma ain't sorry
She comes and then she goes
What was my life before?
Was it something more?
Will this be how I live?
'Cause I don't want this
What was my life before?
Was it something more?
Will this be how I live?
'Cause I don't want this
What was my life before?
Was it something more?
Will this be how I live?
'Cause I don't want this
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11. |
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So maybe these are dreams of loneliness
Or maybe it's the best that I can do
Could these just be dreams of loneliness?
Or is my fate lying ready to serve my just desserts so soon?
I'm a hypocrite 'cause I love what I shouldn't
And I get caught up when those I love do that
And I've always been a fool just like the rest
Maybe there's some freedom in not being the best, yeah
I don't think myself cynical but I can be a little critical
And my dreams make me feel so lonely
I want to be the one you love, but I, I will never be enough
And in my dreams, I still feel lonely
So maybe these are dreams of loneliness
Or maybe it's the best that I can do
Could these just be dreams of loneliness?
Or is my fate lying ready to serve my just desserts so soon?
So maybe these are dreams of loneliness
Or maybe it's the best that I can do
Could these just be dreams of loneliness?
Or is my fate lying ready to serve my just desserts so soon?
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Every step I take makes me regret it
And I want to be loved in every setting
Tired of this melancholy feeling
It all stems from my lack of healing
Yeah I care too much and I love the world
So when it disappoints me it feels personal
And if I ever get fame, I won’t take it well
’Cause I hate being known but I have stories to share
Will I get shot by the press?
Will my blood be in the paper?
Or will they love me for a second or much later?
‘Cause in my dreams I still feel lonely
So maybe these are dreams of loneliness
Or maybe it's the best that I can do
Could these just be dreams of loneliness?
Or is my fate lying ready to serve my just desserts so soon?
So maybe these are dreams of loneliness
Or maybe it's the best that I can do
Could these just be dreams of loneliness?
Or is my fate lying ready to serve my just desserts so soon?
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
Just desserts, just desserts
Just desserts so soon
So maybe these are dreams of loneliness
Or maybe it's the best that I can do
Could these just be dreams of loneliness?
Or is my fate lying ready to serve my just desserts so soon?
And if these are my dreams of loneliness
I can rest knowing I’ll wake up soon
And if these thoughts come to fruition
I don’t know what I will do
Dreams of loneliness
Let these be dreams of loneliness
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12. |
Daylight
10:52
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I always wanna be
Somebody I’m not;
Envious of what
Everyone else, what everyone else has got
What everyone else has got
What everyone else has got
What everyone else has got
I’ll never be what I want
’Cause I expect way too much
I’ve never been so cold before
I just want to—
I just want to wake up
I just want to wake up
I just want to wake up
I just want to wake up
Maybe I’m not meant to be
Someone cool who lives mysteriously
Cause I put down all my cards
That’s why the losses feel so hard
And I’m afraid to fall asleep
‘Cause I don’t know what I’ll dream
And when I see my face
It doesn’t look right, right to me
I'm not sorry
'Cause you're the one who made this mess
I'm hardly ever welcomed here to share what I've created
You build me up to break me down, I hate it, is it fated?
These are my notes from the underground, do you feel the same?
And the world is filled with cannibals who don't feel pain
They want to eat me alive
Will they have the decency to just let me die?
Let me die, let me die
Melancholy will not survive
Let me die, let me die
Melancholy won’t survive
Let me die, let me die
Melancholy will not survive
Let me die, let me die
Melancholy won’t survive
Let me die, let me die
Melancholy won’t survive
Let me die, let me die
Daylight!
Please let me forget the darkness
Cause I’ve been there too long regardless
So let me wake up from this trauma
And forget what’s happened to me, oh
Daylight!
Please let me forget the darkness
Cause I’ve been there too long regardless
So let me wake up from this trauma
And forget what’s happened to me, oh
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Daylight, light, light, light, light, light, light
Light, Light, Light, Light
Let there be light, let there be light
My life’s in shadows
I fear that I’ll wallow for the rest of my life
Light, Light, Light, Light
Let there be light, let there be light
My life’s in shadows
I fear that I’ll wallow for the rest of my life
Ginger, Ginger, we all hate Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all hate Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all hate Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all hate Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all hate Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all hate Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all hate Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all hate Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all hate Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all hate Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all hate Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all hate Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all love Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all love Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all love Ginger
Ginger, Ginger, we all love Ginger
I never wanna be
Somebody I’m not;
Envious of what
Everyone else, what everyone else has got
What everyone else has got
What everyone else has got
What everyone else has got
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Ginger Rodriguez Austin, Texas
alt-pop artist //
singer-songwriter & producer
gingerrodriguez.com
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